Sorry i didnt post anything yesterday or today (so far). at the resort im staying at the put in a new wireless system, but it turns out the new system is utter shit, and its really slow to :/, so i doubt ill be posting much tonight. sorry followers <3
I miss my GIRLS, and my BOYS, but most of all, MY BOY. i wanna laugh with my girlies about shit-headed things. I wanna talk to my guyfriends about things that my girls just dont understand, and listen to them talk about there girl problems. I want to take my boys cloths off, suck his d**k, make passionate love to him, and make him a sandwich, have conversations with him, catch glimpses of emotions that he claims not to feel, fall asleep beside him, and wake up in his arms, i wanna turn the heat down, and stay warm just from his body heat, i wanna be loved.
something that really sucks is, i cant talk to any of my friends. i kinda can…about most things, but not the most important things, because they all always judge me and the person i’m talking about, and then things get really messy. I gets really painful, especially right now, when i’m vulnerable as fuck. From my chest to my ribs is soar, like really soar, and it feels tight, cuz I need to talk to someone, but i cant. and the one person i used to be able to tell everything to and know she wouldnt judge me..i now can’t, it sucks to harsh to have lost that. so many friends, who i care for so much, but somedays, they all seem useless, cuz i KNOW, from many experiences, that you just can’t trust anybody, not fully. I try my very hardest to be trustworthy, and not judge, when friends walk away, i let them, because i assume maybe they just need a break from the world, just like i do, if they walk away because of something i did, then i will chase them non-stop untill i cant make it better, but for the most part, i let me people be.